Sunday, February 27, 2011
normally back in KL, being alone on a sunday is fine with me.. there's internet and my fav show to acc me... and occasionally dear's sms-es.. or just take a nap to kill time....
but to spent my sunday here in melbourne.. is torturing...
yes no doubt time seem to pass fast... but my heart felt soo lonely...
with the time zone diff i cant always talk to mum.... and dear would be busy with his works...
there's noone... i cant stand being home alone in melbourne....
it's just so different... i cant do things i normally did back home...or should i say i have no mood to do all those...
i admit im weak.. im not a strong person physically and mentally...
Friday, February 25, 2011
it's been a week since i left KL... and i stil cant get used to here... the weather.. the cultural.. and most of all.. the loneness... yes i understand that this is just the beginning.. i understand that most of my friends are out there supporting me( in fb).. but it just seem so hard... during the day i can be normal... but when bight arrives.... especially when im in the room, i can't help but to feel the pain... the loneness being here with no family or loved ones at home waiting... with noone to accompany me out to buy groceries, or to dine out or just to walk around....
it's just not the same anymore.. and to bear it for a year and half.. i doubt i cant go through it... moreover, seeing my parent condition at home hurts me even more... whenever i received my parent email, i can't help but to cry out loud... it hurts seeing her being mood-less to work and having insomnias.. seeing her like tis, i just wanna grab a tix and hop onto the plane right away... but i couldn't.... felt so helpless... pls take care of urself... i'll try my best to be home by mid yr....
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
i can't take this anymore....
can time faster forward to 2012? or go backward?
Monday, February 21, 2011
Today is my third days in aussie.. and today was the day i went to uni for orientation... it was fun as i got too know few new friends from china but they have been staying here for more den 2 years now... lol...
it was and still is tough to adapt here.. the weather is super cold.. and im not used to taking public transport go and back alone.... comes home alone... dinner alone.. such a big room(crashing in my bf's friend's house) with noone to be with but myself... my room mates most of the time stayed in the room with the gf.... so we didnt mix much... this few days will be a difficult time to pass... morning, noon is stil fine as i can meet up with bro or go to uni... but when night comes... i miss my home.. i miss mum soo much!!! it's my first time in my whole life i cried so many times.... with the different time zone, it's hard to skype nor chat with mum online...
and just now i checked my mail just noticed my mum sent me an email telling me to take care and how she misses me.. i cant help but to cry ots... altho there were many times i wished i leave the house due to some arguements.. but seeing now tat i really did and to be apart for so long, i misses her alot!! i wanna go home badly...
Monday, February 7, 2011
Finally the long awaits~
CHINESE NEW YEAR is here!!! Usually at this time of the month, should be enjoying the cny spirit and shopping!! However this yr, the atmosphere/feeling wasn't the same.. could it be cuz it's held beginning of the month? or cuz once cny is over, my remaining time in KL shorten..?
Let's see... this year cny was worse den last yr... at least we still had bai nian among friends or yum cha session. but tis yr none was done.. guess everyone are busier den before huh... Anyway, as usual chor 1 and chor 2 visits around relatives houses one by one... but was as fun as before.. cousins among cousins has less things to chat as years goes by... are we too old to socialize? i hope not.. XD
My chor 3.. hmmmm.. whole family left me alone.. T_T all have plans but me.. stayed at home look after the house.. freaking bored!!! Can you imagine tat? with no car to use, u're stuck at home 24 hours a day... facing comp or tv for hours and hours.... search til you have nth else to look for on the net... sigh.... can anyone tell me how to make my cny more hyper? more happening? lol...
oh.. before i forget... Anyone whoever is reading this.. i here wishes you...
GONG XI FA CHAI!! HUAT AR!!!
